Bavusani, you must have realized by now in your consciousness,that some of your actions/posts in some forums including this have given birth to of a lot of confusion/doubt/critical mindset among members, over your common intellect and prudence. Its pointless how much you ignore it,as ignorance is not a solution and can always backfire with more problems.
Even over simple things, matters of indecisive behavior or instances of ridiculous compositions made by you, made everyone surprised and not to mention lead to trolling. But on a serious note , I guess its about time now, as responsible members of this community, to address you on the basis of a constructive criticism, rather not doing it to corner you out.
Its impossible to to miss that you have in past, indeed, posted quality material over Miscellaneous topics which was perfectly normal. At this point of your life , if anything not to personal,is barring you from being what you are, then you can discuss it openly. This forum even has helped people who made it past 5-10 post counts and then left after getting some common suggestions over a PC . TDF has its own sets of flaws, but I have full trust on TDF's credibility as a unit to help get you on the right track, without making fun of you. Put your thinking cap on and revert.